Fight With Night

Darkness is engulfing me

From all the sides,

I am feeling claustrophobic

And have nowhere to hide.

In a moment I am happy

In second I am sad;

Sometimes I am overwhelmed

Sometimes I am mad.

There are times when I feel

I am queen of this world

But then comes the phase

Which makes me doubt my worth.

There are days when I am a talkative person

And there are days when I turn myself into a total mute one,

But nobody knows

In my mind there is a storm so violent

That it makes me plug earphone and become silent.

I am fighting daily

And will continue the fight,

I have lit the candle of perseverance

To overpower and defy every dark night.

Glow in the Dark

There are many moments in our lives when it feels as dark as night and we become hopeless and narcissistic. But in such times if we stop brooding and take lessons from those moments, then we will get to know that they are the moments which make us learn a lot. And if we enjoy those moments and face them with confidence and joy then our lives will also glow with happiness just like this plant is glowing in dark and mesmerizing us by it’s serene view.

There is inspiration present in front of us at every step of our life, we just have to recognize it and then we will be surprised how our those moment changes from pathetic and miserable to joyous and cheerful.

So, never lose hope as whatever comes in our life gives us a chance to learn from it and add more to our experiences.

The Woman’s World

You tell me to fly high

But you keep my wings clipped;

You tell me to go out in the world

But you keep me shackled up in chains.

You tell me this world is mine

But then you confine me to home;

You tell me I can win

But then you throw me in wolf’s den.

I wanted to tell you

That;

I can fly alone

I can roam alone

I can rule this world.

If and only if your lecherous thoughts leave my side

And let me go out on my own free ride

But then again you raise your head like serpent

Trying to take out all the life left in me and turn me into rag.

Now listen to me clear and loud

You hide in your shell

I am going to win this world

To make only and only myself proud.

You don’t have any right over me

And you can’t keep me in bounds anymore

I am here to spread light in this world

But I would not hesitate to burn it anymore.

Déjà Vu

Every time before any exam, I feel a knot in my stomach and have a sensation of choking throat. I have tried to avoid it by exercising lots of measures like meditation, listening to music, going out to take fresh air but nothing helps.

Again this year the same thing is happening with me. I am getting stressed a lot and feel like I am drowning in deep water. Whatever I do, I fail in it. My mind doesn’t want to sleep, it is keeping me totally busy by overthinking, which I detest totally.

I know overthinking leads to nothing but trauma to your mind but still the mind is busy in doing it. We all have this tendency to tell everybody what to do and what not to do. But what they forget is to practice it. I think I also belong to the same category.

I try to not be stressed but I don’t know why my mind stops listening to me and becomes my master. I have a strong grasp on my mind always and avert it from all the negative thoughts. But during exams, it overpowers me and becomes my master.

I am fighting and will keep on fighting with this inner demon. Maybe today I am not that strong but the time will come when I will not let my mind rule over me.

I know my weaknesses and try to rectify it and turn it into my strength. And will nail down this weakness as well.

I have read somewhere that if you are disturbed about something, write down about the problem and it will lead to less stress. And today it really helped me as when I started writing I was drowning but now I am breathing and feeling much better. So yes, I have got a solution for my stress. I just have to see whether it will work in the long run or not.

And till then if I come up with another solution, I will try to share with you all that also. As I know, I am not the only person who is going through such problems but there are many like me. When I can feel free, then maybe this technique will help them as well.

By recognizing and talking about our weaknesses only, we win half of the battle, what is left we can win with strong will power.

You Take My Heart Away:

I went out just now and saw one of the most beautiful scenes. It was drizzling and the weather felt  miraculously beautiful. I am always in awe of such type of weather as rain is closest to my heart. When it rains it satiates me from inside and frees me from all the worldly worries and inhibitions. It makes me a free soul and my spirit establishes that connection with the nature that it needs to feel. I am really thankful to our Nature who always makes us feel connected with her.  We just need to look at the hints closely and viola our soul will always be well nourished by our Nature.