We all wait for the finest moment in our lives, forgetting the best moments we are living. We always think ‘that one day’ will come when everything will just be the best but in that pursuit we always keep behind ‘that special thing’ which we have right now .
It is tendency of humans to either live in past or dwell in future though we always forget that a bird in a hand is better than the two in bush.
It’s not that I don’t do the same but I really don’t want to dwell in future despite, I want to live in present and enjoy it to the full.
But, yeah, there is always but, we are humans and humans tend to think about what is not there with them forgetting what is in their hands. It’s easy to preach but really very hard to implement.
I wish to be the person who not only preaches but implements those things in their life.
A ray of hope is neceassry in everybody’s life. Till when that ray is alive, that will to live, succeed and even conquer the world will be there and nobody can extinguish that.
When there is darkness engulfing you from all the sides, when you feel that you have lost all the battles but then suddenly that ray of hope flickers and makes you lively again and you are ready to conquer the world.
So yeah,whenever you feel like drowning in dark world talk to someone who can illuminate that ray of hope. Feeling hopeful.
When COVID-19 is itself a disaster, it is creating various other havocs in people’s lives by stealing their jobs, by snatching livelihood of many, by breaking people’s dreams, by rendering farmers’ cry in their hearts as their crop is not yielding much, by locking abused children and women’ with their perpetrators and in many other ways which cannot even be stated.
There was an article in ‘Hindustan Times’ which stated that according to a survey by Global Charity there were 4 million girls who were at risk of child marriage in the next two years.
When I read that article, I was stupefied and in that state of shock, I wrote some lines which I am sharing with you all.
The Teen Bride Woes
COVID- 19! COVID- 19!
I don’t want to be bride since I am a teen
I have to study and play
Please go away and remove my dismay.
When I last checked
I was in school;
You came suddenly
And struck me with the sharpest tool.
I was dreaming about college and grabbing a job
But your arrival has snatched all the dreams
Instead I got a permanent job to stay silent and work at home
To sob and weep without any scream.
COVID- 19! COVID- 19!
I have had enough and can’t complain much
You ruined my life
But still you can go away
And save many from becoming an early and unfortuante wife.
Today since morning I was feeling very low. My mind was in turmoils, trying to scare me with its scariest thoughts. I felt defeated and there was no hope. In those moments of hopelessness, I have written some lines in Hindi which I will share with you all.
जीवन क्या है???
क्या है? क्यूं है?
क्या अभिप्राय है?
क्यूं ये बिना पर्याय है?
या एक बोझ
जिसके तले दबता जा रहा मनुष्य।
निराशा अचल है।
यही जीवन का सत्य है।
मरीचिका जिसके पीछे भागना है।
जीवन कुछ नहीं, बस एक बुरा सपना है।
उद् गार अधूरे हैं
लेकिन क्या जीवन पूरा है।।
These line just show the hopelessness that I am feeling. According to it life is meaningless, hopeless, fraud, mirage and a bad dream. It is incomplete and is there to torment us.
Maybe tomorrow my mood will lift and I will come up with something good to cheer you all up.
As I have written in yesterday’s blog about KR market experience. I got hold of some more photographs while surfing my folder; depicting various shades of market, people, mood in the evening time. I went there in afternoon and came by late evening. Though it looks like a usual sight but when you look closely it is quite unusual one which shows the meticulous way in which people do their business. It shows busy peole in market: some going to buy some stuff, some are coming back after shopping, some are selling in the hopes of getting better sales and some are just looking at items whether to buy or not. Everyone has this different shades of mood stretched on their faces.
The more the sun was going down; the more attractive the market was looking. It looked like the market is decking itself like some new bride in all beautiful colors, ornaments and flowers. I am sharing some of those pictures with you which I like the most. Hope you also like it.
I went to KR market in Mysuru back in February for a photography contest. Though my photo was not the one that got selected but I really enjoyed that visit. Seven-eight hours in the market in the midst of various unknown faces where every face was telling a different story was very distinct experience for me. I am mostly nature photographer but for this assignment I gave a shot at this.
There I clicked some pictures among which I love this one the most as it shows the best emotion of humans i.e. happiness and smiling face. The content which is there on this old man’s face is unbelievable. Sitting in his soap shop he looked so peaceful that will give even monks a run.
In the times today when we all are anxious, unhappy, angered up or not satisfied with our lives; we should learn from this old man to be happy in all circumstances and be satisfied with whatever we have. Though it is very difficult but atleast we can give it a try.
I went to stay at my village home for a week. After returning back, when I was looking at all the pictures and was reminiscing those moments of togetherness with family, I stumbled across this picture.
Me, my sisters and my youngest nephew, who is two years old, we all were sitting under mango tree’s shade as power was cut as per daily routine. At that time, this old man passed by near our field. We all know, people in villages are intertwined with emotional relationships and bonds, so, for the same reason we call him baba. As soon as he saw my nephew, he asked him, “Beta, do yo want cucumber?” To which my nephew cutely and innocently replied “Ha baba.” The old man without a single percent hesitation gave the cucumbers to my nephew who held it in his hand like some valuable thing.
If we see from outside, it’s a small incident which doesn’t matter much. But if we go deeper and see the purity of incident, we will definitely be awstruck. The old man with whom we don’t have any relation, we only see him on the road sometimes passing-by, the person who is not even well-off, that person is sharing his things without any inhibition. In today’s world when everybody thinks about self, there are still some gold hearted people.
One more issue drew my attention when I was writing this piece, that if we are staying in some city and someone whom we know vaguely tries to share some eatable with kids, will we allow that to happen? As there is this notion of mistrust and fear that is built up in cities due to all the news, we come across in our day-to-day life.
All in all, I just want to say that if you want to see the purity of relations, the bond of trust, the unspoken love; you have to visit your village to see the beauty of the world which is somewhere lost in the bling of cities, the busy schedule, the rat-race and what not.
My mood today is as gloomy as this sky looks, full of doubts, despair and insecurity. In this COVID times, we all know that we have to be gratitudeful, happy and cheerful if we are safely living at home.
But then what do you tell your mind when it starts spiralling. When it starts thinking this is the time, you might have completed internship and will be searching for job or may have gotten one.
What to tell your mind that why you are sitting at home when whole world was going to be yours. What to tell it when it fills your mind with anxiety that your time is getting wasted.
It’s not that I don’t know the answers of these things or I don’t know why I am at home. But still my mind sometimes becomes king tormenting me with all of it’s worst thoughts.
But then again, I shake myself up and dwell on all the right aspects of my life. How I am able to live peacefully at home when millions of people are struggling to sustain. It is human’s traits to become insecure but the most treasured talent is that he/she can train his/her mind to be secured even in the most insecure times.
So, here I am with all the packages of life: security, insecurity, doubt, confidence, happy and sad and this is what makes me feel that whatever the situation is I will be able to overcome it.